Asky time!!  Is there anything you’ve been dying to know about me?

Everyone has all these awesome kids and families that make them feel amazing on mothers day. I have 3 sleeping children, a boyfriend that could give 2 shits about everything I do for this family. While he doesnt have to lift a finger. I have no coffee, no breakfast in bed, no card, no flowers. Not one single token of appreciation for birthing nearly 30 lbs of babies. Not one single thank you by any of them.

Wtf is all this crap-ass emo music shit playing in my house today? Take your feelers and go cut something. Gtfo of my house. Sure would be nice to be able to use MY laptop today.

Daydrinking Is a bad idea for me. I drink, and then I sleep. Then I wake up, and im angry. Then I eat a whole bag of chips, 3pieces of bread and a banana and I feel like barfing. I don’t do that, but man, I feel like it.

Taking the time to remember my birth mother today. I am so thankful for the life that she gave me and by giving me the opportunity she gave me by giving me away. I’m thankful everyday that I fell into the arms of my forever family. Without her I wouldn’t be here today. Happy birthday other day Kathy. You may be gone but will never ever be forgotten.

It sure seems like I cant catch a break lately. So five or six weeks ago I got pulled over on the freeway by DPS because my license is suspended because I did not pay a fine that I thought was taken care of when my state tax return with intercepted. I had to pay $150 to get my fines reinstated plus a $50 DMV reinstatement fee for my license. A court date with scheduled. Then three weeks ago I got into a car accident, I busted up the front end of my car, had to pay almost $300 to get my car out of impound plus the tow fee to get my car home, then I had to pay another $120 for a radiator. Then I realized this week that I was due to go to court for my first ticket and then I got a paper in the mail saying that I had a warrant issued for my arrest. So now I can’t drive I can’t go out I can’t basically do anything until Wednesday when I get to walk into court and then figure out how much more I’m going to have to pay for all of this. There’s a little part of me that just wants to turn myself in and go to jail for the night so I could see a judge in the morning and have my warrant quashed , but I haven’t been to jail in 12 years and I certainly do not want to start having a criminal history again. When things are going down, I know I am supposed to look up. But everything always seem so hard. I feel like I never get a break. Life is never easy for me and I don’t know why that is .

thank goodness I never ever try to sneak and watch porn or anything since my daughter cant back the fuck off and stop reading my screen from over my shoulder.

Maybe its because I drank 4 in the last hour? Is that too much? Too soon?

Working on #4. Wednesday seems like a good day to get toasted

Why is that when I go out and drink and drink, im fine. But I sit at home, drink 3 Bud Lights and I feel like a teenager who just downed a bottle of MD 20/20?